croaky and dazed.

 so this is my first blog and i suppose it's apt that i don't feel well enough to really write anything as it is always good to start in a disappointing and mediocre way.

 today my creepy crust cold continued, the second different strain in as many weeks. at the moment it's the completely dazed kind where i feel as though if anyone tapped me i'd keel over and sleep forever. surprisingly it seems to have mellowed my mood at work slightly because a) my voice has gone, so i can't engage in the dialogue that the kids usually insist on about their right to eat/shout in the library and b) my weakened state has increased my tolerance by slightly hazing out peripheral vision and low-level noise so my usual beaverish darting-eyed observation of the little bastards has all but disappeared. Or maybe it's all just because i'm so happy about Obama that the world seems like a new and more hopeful place. ? in which case maybe i'm not even ill and this is how i'll feel from now on?

  made a Burns night display with my day. Pointless as no one will look at it, as they never do any of my heart-rending and meaningful displays. invented a new tactic of pointing to people who are annoying me when marie comes out to observe why the whole room is going mental. this makes everyone shift in their chairs. makes me feel like a ten-year old grass. this f ing job! the things it's driven me to! now i've even broken the code of the schoolyard. tee hee. 

  came home and fell asleep. don't feel too great. may have to call in sick finally. contemplating a dippy egg for dinner for comfort factor. i feel like a victorian child all weak and not long for the world, if someone walks past i shall espy the candle light under the door and call for water and swoon and splutter and then sleep for a week with a 'fever' like in pride and prejudice except i got it from the number 2 bus, not from a sexy walk though the country in a storm, and i know which illness i'd prefer...

  promise to put interesting things in tomorrow. sorry!! but i vowed i would write it every day so i felt i couldn't shirk from day 1, as this would be too typical of my behaviour and make me feel more ill. tomorrow, film reviews!! hahaaaaa!! i can say what i like! thank f i got the young ones box set yesterday, that's just what my weakness calls for now...