2011

2011 sounds like the future...
I still can't get over it not being the 90's...

made some new year's resolutions then decided that was a bad idea as i am just setting myself up for a fall if i do that. decided to get fit and healthy mostly, as i still miss my bike so desperately, Simon bought me 'Just Dance' for Christmas which has become my idea of a get-fit routine. I am also desperate to start swimming but can't do that till I get paid, this month's been expensive!
Went to Portmeirion which was a really really amazing way to start the year actually, although it was a glimpse into a lifestyle that I will never have, and some people have all the time, and I tell you, I could get u-u-hu-hoooseed to it! 3 course dinners, different wine with each course, aperitif of kir royale, the kind of food you eat slowly, cause you want to taste it carefully and make it last, not like the food you have at home that you insert into the back of your throat quickly cause you're hungry and you've tasted it a million times before (you bloody cooked it) NOT cooking, that's sweet in itself... I am desperate to go back already, if i had a full-time wage i would go twice or 3 times a year... it is the perfect relax!

celebrated my return to the normal world by getting very pissed. have realised quite bluntly that i mustn't drink that much on my medication...not sensible as it is a nerve-slowing pill so shit loads of alcohol goes pretty badly with it...
Back in wakey now, moved back into the studio which is SWEET, but fricking weird and the walls are all blank...doing some peripheral life-searching soul searching what shall i do where is my life going how can i make it so i just have some money for once! which keeps slipping forward and making me go 'ooohhh gooooooddddd!!!!!heeellppppp!!' but i feel lots better today for the realisation that things won't just change and also that really i have it ok, so i am perpetually poor and i can't buy anything or do anything or go anywhere, but on the bright side, i am buying sewing patterns off ebay for 99p and i am going to make my own clothes, and also the longer life goes on this poorly the more i am not particularly interested in  a lot of material stuff. it's just holidays that are the hard bit to live without...


anyway. i am off, actually got loads to say about exciting stuff but it'll have to wait as i am off on a jaunt.
SImon bought a massive new telly and blu ray so we've been watching lots of films etc. Attenborough in flatscreen is AMAZING!!!! :) that's what makes me happy. when you despair of life watch an attenborough. fact. i've been there. ps although don't watch the bit where this hideous creature called a yaya or something uses his freakishly long finger to scrape insects out of a tree and eat them. it's rank.