back in wakey!

Had a really, really realistic nightmare all night, I even got up twice to go to the loo and both times fell back asleep and continued my nightmare from where it left off. It was about the end of the world, there was a hot cloud, like volcano ash, coming toward where we were, we all had to pack a bag of essential things and then were assessed to see if we were allowed to be saved or not. in the end i stayed with my grandma and decided to wait for the cloud. it was really horrid.

Back from Edinburgh, had a really long and crazy jam-packed weekend. Went to 7 shows in 3 days, actually wet myself a bit laughing. The flat we had rented was unbelievably disgusting, it was really really rank and had an extreme odour de urine, so we were out all day every day. Drank a lot of beer, once again, I was unable to pay for anything at all, which wasn't a great feeling. I applied for a job at the studios where i have my studio, but i'm pretty sure the time has passed when i could have got it. Someone told me that all the council jobs that i keep applying for are internal application only, but they don't put it on the website, so it's a total f-ing waste of my time... :C

I am currently wAtching Beauty and the Geek, I wish it would last all day then I could go back to bed. I bloody hate hate Americans.HATE hate. There's anough of them in edinburgh to keep you in a state of constant bubbling fury.
Anyway, today i need to sort out the flat because it's full of crap and it's stressing simon out, and lots of the crap is mine, so i really should move some. Got 3 suitcases of stuff off mum to sell on e-bay so i shall also get on with that today.

thinking about my birthday too. trying to decide what to do... so difficult when all your friends live all over the country, you feel rude asking them to travel, and more than that, it's hard to do, so i shall have to think on...

well, on september the 2nd, I can honestly say that this has been the most emotional, most mental and most exhausting summer ever. If the next few months can give me one thing it will be calmness. I am going to work very hard on how i react to things and try to be more positive, i know i am too easily defeated by stuff and it's stupid cause i've had a moderate amount of shit and i'm still okay, so what's the biggie???