fly gobs.

There's a German boy in here wearing a leather jacket and leather army boots over his jeans, I think when he just left that he clicked his heels? Don't do yourself any favours mate! Lots of the German kids here give me the creeps, it's really unfair I know, and I try to resist it, but they are so........ don't get me wrong, they are mostly 18+ so not kids really, and they are generally very surly bunch, the ones that come up here, argumentative and bad-humoured and so on, so i do have a basis for disliking the particular ones that I'm thinking of. Mostly as well, they are tall, blond and they wear leather army boots, I'm not exaggerating, it's weird.
OK, enough of the light racism (something you won't hear them saying-ARR!!). There are massive tensions here between the German and Chinese students, they do definitely treat the Chinese students with a level of fearlessness, they have no qualms about shouting at them, as if they were small children.
Cripes my sciatica hurts, it's distracting me immensely.
So on to the Apprentice... SHOCK eviction of Ben! The boy with the face of an evil riverside dwelling animal... Ma and I agreed that it would have been more satisfying if Ben had gone on a week when he was being more overtly dick-ish, it was a real suprise, I thought deborah was a goner, choosing the rocking horse was a ridiculous decision. I can tell that Srallen likes James, also I thought that the birthing pool WAS a good choice! god listen to me, what a load of old balls! Anyway, I am glad that Ben and Philip, the repressed homosexuals, have gone, and perhaps the massive wanking competition can come to an end. James and Lorraine for the finalee!

No Planet Earth AGAIN last night, watched a programme on i-player about the South Pacific though, that was nice, not a patch on Attenborough though, the script was awful! I'm used to classier things now...Plus I was forced to witness a) a fly with a massive gob and tongue and b) a carnivorous caterpillar with 5 spike legs at each end and no legs in the middle :( it's really interesting though, to see how these remote lumps of land colonize, with little things washing there in the waves and blowing there in a cyclone. Also, they touched on Easter Island, which is so fascinating, how a race can use their resources up to extinction... mainly cause they want to build massive heads...aaaahh the pursuit of art...

So weird planning my last few weekends in Cambridge. I can't bear to think about it. Gonna arrange such a sweet blow-out for the 13th, it may involve me being sick. and crying. The last few years have been so so mental, when I think about them I get worn out, I think maybe my life is calming, and even a level of contentment creeps in now and then, which is all I've ever wanted really, well, it's all anyone wants.